What is wrong with me?

I question myself and what was created. My heart aches, my tears roll, he laughs. All I feel is pounding of the pain, confusion, and The Who I really am... Of course "I'll grow out of it" I'm just that "young teenage girl that will understand one day" yet the real question becomes do you truly understand the understand one day?  Or do you even understand what this post is trying to make you understand about the girl or the adult understanding the true meaning of the specific understanding that's never understood?