Why does God put these special souls in our path?

Ephemeral but eternity...thinking about it deceased.... my fingers begin to shake, my eyes begin to bleed, my soul begins to weep. Te amo, te oigo decir. Esperando que algún día podamos estar juntos. Sé que es demasiado pronto para decirlo, pero parece que siempre te he conocido ... te quiero ... se siente como una necesidad ... quiero que nosotros trabajemos ... pero por ahora supongo que esto es una dolorosa despedida and a long hug.

I remember this one time I was looking at hashtags about god and then I started finding accounts atheists created. I will never forget how it made me feel, my stomach was turning and my eyes tearing. These accounts were just bashing on god and just saying awful things that truly hurt my heart.

What is wrong with me?

I question myself and what was created. My heart aches, my tears roll, he laughs. All I feel is pounding of the pain, confusion, and The Who I really am... Of course "I'll grow out of it" I'm just that "young teenage girl that will understand one day" yet the real question becomes do you truly understand the understand one day?  Or do you even understand what this post is trying to make you understand about the girl or the adult understanding the true meaning of the specific understanding that's never understood?

A Special New Someone...

"I'm a joke from Ohio and I'm just really tan" says the beautiful soul I have just began communicating with....

A seed has been planted into the ground, waiting for the moisture and sun to help it grow. 

The water from the ground begins the process of making the flower emerge from the seed, creating strong and confident roots, but their is no auspious sun. 

As the flower waits for the sun, it faces insane points in its life where it is questioned, if it's even possible for it to grow out of the ground.

 It has been traped underneath the vigorous moss and ivy trying to hide what the flower should really be.

 But one day the sun comes out with it's dazzling and brilliant bright light of warmth and love.

 The flower then begins to grow out of all the crud it has been accustomed to and it grows and grows..

As if the flower and sun are meant to be.

Oh, how it would be nice. (Teenage girl wishing)

I wish Santa Maria had one those cliffs where you can park on the edge and star gaze, with the view of pretty city lights. Maybe be able to park in a tacoma with the bed facing the view, with someone and cuddle up in blankets. Being able to talk about anything and everything from problems to just curiosity's you can share. Even if they are the most weird ones.... being able to be comfortable with someone. It would be nice. My imagination just wishes it lived in that one perfect movie yennow...

SUMMER 2017

God works in crazy ways !

Trust in God because he will be the only one that will help you through your pain, mistakes, and struggles. He will never judge who you are which is truly extraordinary! Praise God!